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  • Jul. 4th, 2008 at 10:40 PM
Wylde1

I'm a novelist. I write. Supposedly. I have science fiction and fantasy books in print to prove it.

But I hit a wall a while ago and haven't gotten on with the show for some years.  My books are no longer new news. My career is past languishing and in need of CPR. 

My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to re-construct myself and my life as not only a writer, but a raving full-blown FULL-TIME novelist, living the ~successful~ creative life I want to have, and have experienced bits of before. 

How to get there from here. That's why I'm *freakin'*.  Plus the fact I just commited to a delivery deadline for a book (under contract) that is long, long, overdue. Publisher doesn't care anymore why it's so late; they just want to receive the frakkin book. I finally threw down and said they'd have it by 12/1. 

So, naturally, I just left a world-class city where I mostly lived for the last 13 years, to hole up in a long-term (and I do mean long-term) writer's retreat Somewhere Else. I'm here not just for this 1 book, but for the one after (also sold), and whatever else I work on after that. 

No distractions, yes? Except for the world on my desktop, courtesy of the net.  And folks like you.

So this is my excursion. Surely I'm not the only one writhing on the horns of various creative/lifestyle/career/focus dilemmas. Or maybe, what the hell, I AM the only one going through this right now. Guess I'll find out.  At any rate, I felt the need for someplace to vent and share the process (hopefully more process than melt-downs, but no guarantees) - and get some useful feedback. Or not. Maybe I'm just screaming into cyberspace cuz it's therapeutic. Who knows.

My world, and welcome to it. 

And yes, I look exactly like my Second Life avatar, which is my user pic here. 

And now I will sell you a bridge in Brooklyn....

~Wylde~


Comments

[info]merlynn_valen wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 06:09 am (UTC)
I was writing comic books oriented to mature audiences (no, not porn, comics ignoring the comics code authority). After Marvell killed the independent market, we closed up shop. I started working on novel based on the story in one of our books, but the well ran dry. I freely admit that I've been kind of running away from the creative element until recently myself.
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 06:20 am (UTC)
That's a big hairy thing, grappling with the Muse. Tough clinch, especially when you have a Vision of some sort and cruel Reality has clobbered you about either its artistic value, mundanities like "market realities", or your ability/worthiness to do that work.

I highly recommend taking a gander at The Artist's Way, by Julia Cameron. It is a workbook/series of exercises aimed at clearing away the underbrush that amounts to blocks to creativity. I credit my against-all-odds break-out novel sale (only the 3rd book ever bought from the slush pile in this major publisher's history)to my work with that particular tool. Transformative book.

Powerful mojo, Cameron has (she said, channeling Yoda...)

And as to the comic biz...would love to talk with you about that. I "see" my stories like a movie, unrolling before my eye (because I 'go elsewhere' to 'see' my stories, and I'm watching it unfold. Literally). Lends itself to graphic novels/comic interpretation of course because I perceive it in storyboards, essentially.

Gah.

Visual channeling. Blessing and a curse. Difficult to wrestle into narrative per se but very...vivid, as you're getting it down..


~W~

[info]merlynn_valen wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 06:42 am (UTC)
Ironically, I have more a feeling of where the story is going than seeing all of the detail at first. As I start playing it in my head, the details become more and more clear. Then, I start to get subtle expressions on the faces of speakers, odd turns of phrase during conversations, etc. I start to see plotlines that don't work or fail the test of suspending disbelief. It's almost as though I'm writing the story in reverse somehow.
[info]merlynn_valen wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 06:43 am (UTC)
Oh, and I do geeky, silly muppet voices too.....

Ok, can't type this evening.... *sigh*

Edited at 2008-07-05 06:44 am (UTC)
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 09:56 am (UTC)
Muppet voices have redeeming social value, I think.

I have an ongoing Rabbit/Dinosaur dialog - and cartoons to match - that I finally figured out is a mutant stepchild of Rocky and Bullwinkle. Much homage to the Moose and Squirrel, but then again: Bunny and Dino Ain't Them.

They bicker more.

And then there's that underlying sexual tension, cuz Rabbits & Lizards are natural mating pairs, but that is a whole 'nother story....


Edited at 2008-07-05 09:57 am (UTC)
[info]merlynn_valen wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 10:02 am (UTC)
Hmm..... underlying sexual tension, eh? I'm afraid to ask *giggle* especially after runins with um... furries.
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 10:34 am (UTC)
well, you know, maybe more like an old married couple than a frisky furry pair. Dinos are curmudgeonly and stolid, drink a lot of beer and belch in chorus, and like to ogle the girls. In contrast, Rabbits accessorize properly, and would just as soon rip out your throat as talk to you, if you cross them on a wrong day. (BMS - bunnish menstral syndrome, I think, may account for that. Tho when they're not cranky they're damn festive.) Or there is the alternate reality of harish life as presented in the alt.devilbunnies newsgroups, but since they are Fudd-centric (as in Elmer) and ignorant of the important role dinysaurs play in rabbit lifestyles, I think I must intentionally dismiss their ouvre.

Later when I get my newly reconstituted office *thoroughly* reconstituted, time permitting I will upload some bunny/dino cartoons. They are self explanatory, and when you behold their interaction, All Will Become Clear....

~W~

kinda straddling the fence twixt da hare and saur. Hence, a Drabasaur. Or, conversely, one threatened on both sides by all one surveys...

Eek.

Time to head for the goat pasture...


To be continued...


Edited at 2008-07-05 10:37 am (UTC)
[info]merlynn_valen wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 06:49 am (UTC)
My yahoo ID and AIM are published on my profile. I tend to work from home on a lot of my assignments. So, I'm logged in frequently. I also check messages on the services I use frequently.

If you choose to add me on one of them, remember to mention your LJ ID, so I know who you are. Btw, I'm online now.
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 10:00 am (UTC)
thanks for the offer. alas, I don't do IMing systems at all, ever. I hardly ever do phone for that matter: I am busy maintaining Bubble Space (like Bubble-wrap), on porpoise. Ergo, minimal contact with real-time anything. But email's always good. Then I can respond at 5am when I've been up howling at the moon, instead of X o'clock when a normal person would write....

But for me that's normal, so it's all relative. (I have abby normal relatives, too, but that's another thread...)


[info]merlynn_valen wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 10:04 am (UTC)
I have abnormal hours, too. Then again, I work in IT on the infrastructure side. This is the usual maintenance time for normal applications, except online video games. Many of my friends are INFJs, too. It's difficult to get most of them to maintain contact, even through email. :P
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 10:42 am (UTC)
hahahaha.

so true.
you are a creature of patience, and I'm sure all your INFJ friends adore you if you Get It, why they're not present yet still engaged.

!!!

I am - well, I wanted to say a "recovering geek" but really, I'm not recovering, uh uh, I have turned my back on that way of life forever and anon. Now I have thrown myself (la!) totally into the right-brain thingy I am called to do these days.

I am madly resisting the urge to go a-geeking, even though I have clients contacting me for various gigs - No, says I, don't do that any more uh uh, let me refer you...

Well, *mostly* I manage that. Because really, I'm on a farm in the middle of BFE and I can No Longer Geek Properly for you. Besides you don't want me breaking out into existential angst in prose in the middle of your business/marketing plan/systems analysis/BPM document, ergo:

Really. I don't do that any more.

But I feel your pain if you do. I know you are born for better things, cuz if you can do "that stuff" for get-by living, I *know* you have deeper talents than are employed in that setting.

That's my story, and I'm sticking to it.
[info]merlynn_valen wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 11:14 am (UTC)
Wait, you're in Egypt, PA? I thought I was the only person who knew that BFE was out there.... much less where it is....

Sorry I couldn't resist it....
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 5th, 2008 06:24 pm (UTC)
Hush, now. It's not nice to reveal the secret location of the Bat-cave. Er, Writer's Lair.
[info]raging_gargoyle wrote:
Jul. 7th, 2008 01:39 pm (UTC)
I can totally sympathize with your plight. I have at least three books in various stages of completion. My problem, similar to what you and merlynn were discussing is that I can "see" the entire story in my head, but as soon as I reach the end in there I lose interest in writing it out, because I already know what happens.

I'm going to friend you if you don't mind, if only so I can keep tabs of how your book(s) are going. I am very well read in teh sci-fi genre and look forward to figuring out if I have read you before.
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 7th, 2008 06:52 pm (UTC)
as soon as I reach the end in there I lose interest in writing it out, because I already know what happens.

sometimes knowing how something ends is as good as having gone through the creative process to get there. I have to do mental/perspective exercises to keep the thrill of storytelling fresh and engaging to me.

I am very well read in teh sci-fi genre and look forward to figuring out if I have read you before.

Eventually I'll decloak from the anonymous zone but that won't be for quite a while yet. Meanwhile, Cyberpersonas R Us. :) (Which is eerily like my day to day persona, but I'm enjoying the anonymity for now...)

[info]raging_gargoyle wrote:
Jul. 7th, 2008 06:56 pm (UTC)
I can totally understand a desire for anonymity, it is one of the most attractive features of the internet after all. Care to through out some of the exercises that you use?
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 7th, 2008 07:12 pm (UTC)
I think to stay excited about story telling there have to be three things happening.

One is, "things I don't know", so there is undiscovered territory waiting to be discovered. That's territory I can discover only as I write - no exrecise for that, just the doing of it.

A second is a dramatic payoff that is psychologically satisfying - just knowing how something ends doesn't in itself convey any oomph. To get that feeling of dramatic crisis and resolution, is where craft exercises come in: working on pacing, timing, dramatic encounters that heighten tension, etc. It is applying a critical analytical eye to scenes and how they interact to take one to the tense climax/resolution point. And if there's not enough of a rollercoaster there, figuring out why, and correcting it through writing work. I think of that work as writing exercises.

Example: "the confrontation between these 2 characters is flat and aimless, when really it needs to heighten the danger they're both in and ratchet the overall story tension up a notch. How can I rewrite this to accomplish that goal?"

The final necessary thing is having characters that I can identify with and fall in love with myself. I need to channel them, to live in their skin, to care about what happens to them next, to understand their motivations and likely actions without having to tear my hair out trying to puzzle those things out in a left-brain way. When I'm in that space with characters I am living their adventure with them, and that makes the journey through plot events very exciting. I accomplish this by doing intentional visualization, meditation, and inviting characters for conversation in what I would basically call a channeled manner.

Getting inside characters like this also sometimes throws a monkey wrench into the plot I thought I was following. It often turns out these people have their own ideas about where things should be heading. So then I also suddenly have a lot more undiscovered territory to explore than I had anticipated.

And all together that makes for exciting storytelling process.
[info]many_simulacra wrote:
Jul. 16th, 2008 12:52 am (UTC)
(You totally didn't ask for my advice, but here it is anyway:)

I've found it helpful to have a writing buddy--not someone you write with, but someone you write *to*. Every day, she and I email each other and tell each other what we've done that day, creatively. It holds us accountable to someone and keeps us "reporting in" to someone who is, by now, closely familiar with all the projects we have up in the air.

Or maybe you'll be using your LJ for this. Either way, good luck! December first--that's half-crazy talk.

[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Jul. 16th, 2008 04:13 am (UTC)
I don't respond too well to the accountability pressure, although I *would* like to find a fellow writer I could have substantive (and frequent, as in weekly or more often) convo with regarding craft issues and things specific to the WIP. I think I do have 1 person I can do that with, and will be doing it as soon as I'm more into production mode with my writing.

> December first--that's half-crazy talk<

That made me laugh out loud.

Yeah, huh.


[info]eniastoa wrote:
Oct. 28th, 2008 11:17 am (UTC)
How [info]matociquala begins to keep up on LJ, I don't know, but I'll point out to you a gem of hers I pointed out to a friend who was trying to figure out how seriously to take the craft of writing fiction ... http://matociquala.livejournal.com/692469.html

I don't know if that will speak to you at all, but you might find something that does elsewhere in her writing+craft+wank posts, or if not, at least a few laughs.
[info]wylde_writer wrote:
Oct. 31st, 2008 03:32 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the link. I know her writing, but didn't realize she kept a regular blog here. Kewlness.

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